you implant a child in me the way
an angel implanted mary
as you unlatch you dribble on the sheets
crawl up to rest your head upon my belly
in the warm glow of a Sunday morning
you lie there and listen for months
as she grows
in the sunlight streaming through the blinds
you massage my tummy to
feel her feet
and when you kiss me you watch
my eyes for our glint that will also be hers
i shift in the bed to take my place for her coming
i feel her wriggling and pushing to get out
and meet the world to meet you
but you are gone
to get something from the other room did you say
i guide her and she guides me as her head emerges
i reach out a hand to protect her and support her
straining and stretching my muscles
we birth
we lie bloody and sweaty in the warm evening air
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it is the spring
and my sprout grows
a meaty lip
from its anthered crown
milk teeth on the underside
it sucks and licks the air
with a stunted tongue
It’s not always like this
Lying on that sofa basking in
Appreciation and when will it
Stop what do you need to keep
This warm what if you can’t your
Brain goes in to shock when you
Realise you’re going to die
But there are other things too
That don’t last and then come again
And then don’t last and then you
Remember Ryan Gosling in this film
Perving on his student but also
Saying that history is a spiral and
People make mistakes and don’t
Forget to feed the cat and liking
Marx doesn’t make you an Orwellian
State and he stops perving on his
Student because human connection
Isn’t the same as sex even though
We say what we say and do
You think about life, you think about
Death but it’s not always like this
When you’re good, when you’re bad
It’s not always like this, when you
Lust after a dog dick in your mouth
It’s not always like this and they have
Barbs anyway so shut up you freak
What are you like but it’s not always
Good to play with people either
You have to be honest and lie you have
To be quiet when you shout you have to
Believe cynically in hope ah because
It’s not always like this
I look death in the eye sometimes
I panic sometimes I calm down
Sometimes it’s nice even this is
Being human you live which is
Change you die is change it is
Like this.